Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Mid Life
Sometimes, we all get some wake up calls in our lives. Some are welcomed, some are not. What is the reason for this? Is there a reason for this? I've had both in my life thus far.
What sparked this? It's been a combination of things lately, but yesterday, my ex mother-in-law (who I love) contacted me through Yahoo's Messenger. It was a pleasant surprise to hear from Doris! I really miss Doris and Jack!
I also had my 45th birthday earlier in the month, while flying back from Raleigh, NC to Columbus, OH. I spent the weekend with Karin, her boys, her mom, Patrick, David, Ralph, and Susan. Garrett graduated from Eastern Carolina University and it was a very nice weekend! I'm so happy I was able to share in the joy and spend time with people I care deeply about.
Maybe it's where I am in my life that's made me take a look at who I am and why I'm here.
I think about how I was raised and everything I've learned from my family and friends. I've not been the greatest communicator for the last 5 years, and I feel remorse for this. I didn't realize this about myself until I became involved with a man that was not good with communication. I struggled with this over the course of the relationship with him. He's not communicating with me, then I won't communicate with him!
Petty! What stubbornness on my part! Is that a trait from my zodiac sign or did I learn this?
The lack of communication over the years didn't just affect my relationship with him, it also had an effect on all my loved ones! I'm amazed and overwhelmed at times knowing that I have those loved ones in my life and I want them to know how much I appreciate and love them in my life. I'm so sorry I haven't been there for you when I really did need to be there.
Yes, my 45th birthday was a wake up call to be a better human being! The last 5 years, I've been coasting through life...NO MORE!
I have so much I want to accomplish in my life and I know I'll do it because it never leaves my soul.
What sparked this? It's been a combination of things lately, but yesterday, my ex mother-in-law (who I love) contacted me through Yahoo's Messenger. It was a pleasant surprise to hear from Doris! I really miss Doris and Jack!
I also had my 45th birthday earlier in the month, while flying back from Raleigh, NC to Columbus, OH. I spent the weekend with Karin, her boys, her mom, Patrick, David, Ralph, and Susan. Garrett graduated from Eastern Carolina University and it was a very nice weekend! I'm so happy I was able to share in the joy and spend time with people I care deeply about.
Maybe it's where I am in my life that's made me take a look at who I am and why I'm here.
I think about how I was raised and everything I've learned from my family and friends. I've not been the greatest communicator for the last 5 years, and I feel remorse for this. I didn't realize this about myself until I became involved with a man that was not good with communication. I struggled with this over the course of the relationship with him. He's not communicating with me, then I won't communicate with him!
Petty! What stubbornness on my part! Is that a trait from my zodiac sign or did I learn this?
The lack of communication over the years didn't just affect my relationship with him, it also had an effect on all my loved ones! I'm amazed and overwhelmed at times knowing that I have those loved ones in my life and I want them to know how much I appreciate and love them in my life. I'm so sorry I haven't been there for you when I really did need to be there.
Yes, my 45th birthday was a wake up call to be a better human being! The last 5 years, I've been coasting through life...NO MORE!
I have so much I want to accomplish in my life and I know I'll do it because it never leaves my soul.
// posted by DLB @ 10:10 AM 
